some people walk in the rain, others just get wet

umm.... excuse me? redux

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 09:59:24 GMT

holy shit:
back to the real world, so many things/people all in one night. and i mean SO many people.
yea, him. and i thought i was over it.

ditto and word to legalish.

now i'm gone.... PEACE OUT cityterm. fall '04.

...actually

hurrah!

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 15:58:55 GMT

with love...

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 05:31:53 GMT

hello and goodbye
cityterm is winding down..... packing packing lots of boxes. bare walls, no blankets. camping out with a sleeping bag.
empty shelves no alarm clock/lamp-y by my bed.... empty-ish closet. empty-ish drawers.
math assessment, meet with frenchy, anne. shipping, urban memoir. bring it on, snapshot, closing ceremony.
home.

night time zoloft

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 04:17:17 GMT

i cannot write urban memoir. i know what i want to say, just not how. it all sounds bad. struggle. also, i'm still sick. and i don't know why i'm updating this since it seems to have fallen off the radar as of late.
my roomate says our room smells nice. i can't smell it.
2 down, 28 to go. just kidding. i think anne's in the hall. maybe i'll see what's up.
i'm coming back next friday. mark your calendars. and thanksgiving seems like years ago. back in the bubble.

not for long...

by the way, there's a fan in our room that always stays on. and i've pretty much been convinced from the beginning that that's not good for the environment.

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 03:12:53 GMT

nyc gives me fevers.

unnecessary

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 03:11:07 GMT

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

chez holly

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 23:03:48 GMT

i'm back! but not for long.... i leave in approximately 18 hours. peace out san francisco. hello new york. and community meeting. plus getting myself from the airport to dobbs. with a very large bag. ah yes, the life i live.

i hate goodbyes.

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 02:50:53 GMT

so it's been a while..... a lot has happened. a whole neighborhood study in fact. a quick preview of next week with my mom/holly/sam being here this weekend. i have a feeling this week is gonna go really slow just to put me in a foul mood. i'm not at cityterm now for the second night in a row, and i'm taking a break from writing my self-assessment about east harlem. what up el barrio. i also have massive amounts of reading for david. gotta check in with jay... a lot of people actually. there was no time for phone calls this week. there are people at cityterm that i didn't even see all week. being smitten is kind of getting old. especially when it disappoints you. and also: when you tell someone you're going to call them back "later" maybe you should specify if "later" will be over a week.... yeah. if you care at all.

i also just need to catch up on approximately 24 hours of sleep/not do david's reading.

jesse boom-boom brown

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 05:26:16 GMT

this is my life as of now:
today i got the cutest-butt-at-cityterm award. free spirit. walking around the common room in no pants, with an excuse of course. late nights and movies. last saturday night... garden state soundtrack. smitten...

let me break it down for you:

"i don't wanna be you anymore. this sucks."

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 21:57:12 GMT

i don't think i can do this any better than sonja did. this weekend was actually the best thing of my life, and i may throw around the word actually awfully casually, but this time i actually mean it. there i go again. basically, i had a rad time and as always it's a little saddening to be back in the bubble. it was a mixture of your basic really good saturday night, a glimpse of urban/freshman and sophomore years that are never coming back. plus when jonathan walked into the room followed by tom i half expected benji to walk in after them. that didn't happen. but i ended up smitten by the end of the night anyways.

it all started with 2 packs of cigarettes. and let me just say that it all ended with none. sonja's piece of paper that saved her life, our shit of a college dorm room, thanks to andy and his tims. condoms, bikini clad girls, x-box and orbit gum. abercrombie khaki shorts. we got our snoop on. mai fowdy was put into full effect during the breakfast club.... spent the whole next day repeating the same few lines from the movie. long conversations with jonathan about the other half of my stupid summer almost-thing. we felt sick, but didn't get sick. passed out on our single bed with the lights on, the door open to the john jay 14th floor hallway.... cigarette smoke lingering (i'm pretty sure i actually smoked a cigarette in under a minute.) woke up, cigarettes out the window.... starbucks. chips and swedish fish and water and dinner at the seinfeld restaurant. bought up in the financial district, headed to zack shedd's. (yea, same zack shedd.) my urban past that i realize is gone and it's sad when i can count all my friends in my grade on one hand. cigarettes all night long. we had a moment. hey spandex, it's all about the dkdk. urban nostalgia. prince/david dunbar heading our way at 4:30 am. "i'll call you next time i'm in new york." actually. exchange numbers, long metro ride.

now i can't concentrate and if i could be anywhere i'd be back in saturday night...
i wonder if i might be coming home soon....

i'm not leaving this bench 'til we hook up!

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 23:18:04 GMT

where's schley? i feel for the first time in a while like i actually have time to think. according to some people, that means that i have to call/write everyone i know RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW because i guess i'm forgetting people.... before you say anything, i know that's not what you actually meant.... it's been a lot of harlem, basically, in the past 2 days and a lot of work too. manifesto, immigration, think tank, along with the math test that i'm still avoiding going on a week now and 2 chapters worth of french questions. oh, and let me not forget my beloved night crew. anyways, i finally managed to catch up on some of my emails, and mail off those fucking letters that have been taking up room for over a week. i'm really looking forward to this weekend, whether it be in boston, or at colombia, or.... minnesota? or even here.... it'll be relaxing. unfortunately not 100% stress-free due to my good friend asher lev and the dialogue that i should start working on with that book. due monday. homesickness in the back of my mind comes up every once in a while.... thanksgiving here i come. i really wish it didn't include a plane though.... oh, and: december 19th, 2 days after my return home, comes aley.... a bit of comic relief plus the fam who i haven't seen since circa 7th grade. winter's coming and i miss the one-seasonness of san francisco. you're gonna have to wait a little bit longer for more pictures, since my account is too large.
i should really go shower/do some work. even though i feel like i don't have any, i know i do.
p.s. nancy's having her baby. and i want a full-body orgasm. that's my mission for this weekend. maybe.
love, jesse

i'm a nomad.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 03:38:52 GMT

fucking canker sores. latest: i'm a nomad. in recent news.... i've moved across the hall to keep torry company. i like it a lot and i'm happy. so that's that. i spent all afternoon in astoria, mostly with zoe and alexa. we mostly just ate. a lot. and then we went to a poetry reading at this snazzy little soho bookstore. i just did my french reading (pierre et jean just keeps getting better and better!) and i still have about 40 pages of asher lev. tomorrow, c block, be there.
yesterday in the cab on the way back from the river the cab driver turned on the game and the announcer started talking and his voice reminded me of that of the announcer for the giants and it made me think about riding in my dad's van with the game on, chomping on a piece of licorice. i hope my dad's doing ok.
but then! we got back and anne was really really made and basically told me i had to move all my stuff back into my old room, and her logic didn't make any sense. so we got all the girls real riled up and got a petition going and then we just had a floor meeting and i get to stay. then i got a nice little note slid under my door telling me not to do my french homework, and that was nice, because we didn't. i should probably apologize for this entry. it's not very interesting, and i have no pictures to make up for that....
apologies also for being m.i.a. the past few days. and the letters are going out tomorrow. i promise.

nose it

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 22:51:08 GMT

i don't really think i've heard the thong song since like 7th grade. oh, good times. in any case.... it's been a rough few days.
i have a lot of reading to do. yuck.
props to jered for these pictures.... there's gonna be a baby!
love,
jesse

put this in your pipe and smoke it

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 17:38:32 GMT

me and zoe are on lock-down today. so i'm sitting around in my underwear watching sex and the city and updating my lj. as per.
the things i hope on doing today are: doing laundry, writing thank-yous, letters to those who i owe them to (i.e. sick grand-parents), sending the postcards i wrote over a month ago, finding my book that i have to read from for monday... i'll let you know how many i actually get to. hopefully the night will culminate in a chill session by the river with zoe....
here are the pictures i promised. pre-boston, boston and preliminary LA photoshoot... more on that coming soon.

love,
jesse

back in the game...

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 23:27:41 GMT

so. we went to boston.
drove up with zoe, alex and mommy, quite the adventure. put in orders for pre-cooked meals, chatted and such. got to newton, were driven to brookline by alex where i met the sis. went to dinner... crazy waiter on crack, anyone anyone? had a good and much needed long night's sleep next to my love (zoe, that is)... shopped all day saturday on newbury street, purchased a new shirt that i never got to christen. ran into rube at stephani's. random. got crepes, had a nice phone conversation... saw i heart huckabees. it requires a lot of thinking. typical cityterm movie, if you will. we recommended it to david dunbar. once again, slept in, hopped on a bus to harvard square, went through allston.... summer squash, melted chocolate bar, table-sharing... got together with alex to give zoe and megan quality sister time. chilled in the basement while he showered, stole the atlantis griffin luke gucci visor picture off the door and headed to the cheesecake factory where we ran into stacy greenberg, looked at restoration hardware, smoked and talked politics while waiting an hour for our table. once seated, alex opted to not get a glass of wine because of our trainee waiter and his trainer who then proceeded to imply that alex was gay because of his pink shirt. go figure. ("do you have any grey poupon?" popped up again.... and this time his request was met.) then we headed over to moffat road (street?) chez jess bruce and talked cityterm/boston for a while with grace and the fam, always leaving someone out of the convo. sleepover with jess, and i even made the bed in the morning. i had breakfast and talked with oliver, my new best friend, and then headed back down to brookline where i chilled waiting to hear from zoe. i sat in barnes and noble and read paris hilton's book, and then zoe called on her way to new hampshire so i had the day to myself. since my knowledge of boson is very limited, i had few options of what i could do. i caught the train down to newbury where i caught up on my correspondance by calling everyone i know, talked to hewette, smoked all my cigarettes, visited a nail salon, bought myself a shirt.... went back to brookline to reconnect with zoe and we went back to jbruce's.
this is where the night starts to suck. no word from benji who's still in enw hampshire..... our monday night plans were pretty much scrapped so we talked about carsten and told secrets and then fell asleep.
tuesday morning was hectic trying to figure out plans.... i finally decided that i would regret it if i didn't get up off my ass so i did and caught the train to brookline, hopped in a cab and went to allston to see benji. walked around in flipflops in the rain, thrift stores, space heaters for my feet, saw pete, and shook my head at the pad thai cheese spinach omelette. then i left with my "thanks for coming to visit" mix and had a stressful time getting back to newton to make the train with my girls.
from there we hopped on a train to penn station, got on metre north, were "delated indefinitely" at glenbrook (or greystone?) and finally got back to dobbs just in time for a paris update from alexa and a community meeting.
so after all that.... i'm back in the bubble and it's not that bad...
props if you made it through all that.
pictures coming soon.
love,
jesse

baseball mixer? anyone, anyone?

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 12:45:29 GMT

wow. sometimes people are just so good at disappointing me.

"umm, do you have any grey poupon?" - alex

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 15:28:55 GMT

this next week is going to be hectic, i can tell. housing project, other work, working out the long weekend.... that means benji needs to be a little more on top of things. still waiting to clear all that up.... on another note: woke up at 6:30 yesterday to go to the dodge poetry festival on a farm in nj. thrilling, yes? we spent the rest of the day in the rain, the mud and the cold, until they took pity and let us leave a little early. then it was back on the bus and back to dobbs. disappointing test messages (that shouldn't be a conversation btw) on the way home. a little frustration. but so this week will be full of housing project, and then on friday it's off to boston with my lover (zoe, obviously).

kristin and jess go to the gym:

highlight of yesterday - our bus gets stuck in the mud:

"yea, i used to make milk popsicles when i was a kid..." - ben

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 00:54:19 GMT

good weekend:
trying really hard not to sing along during west side story friday night, and then going to bed right after it ended.
waking up, chillin and doing work....
graced by the presence of mr. lee stringer
shimmied into the city with ben and zoe.... dojo, freaks lounge, 5th ave, the neverending search for mk&a, hookah bar and then the 11:20 train back to dobbs with erica, henok, ez and jack (who doesn't get my sense of humor, btw)
sunday: worked all morning on brooklyn bridge project, followed by our project gallery (very impressed, i must say.) i think the highlight of everyone's night was ez and the "e.z. band" (e-a-s-y jess?)
p.s. i've noticed a definite decline in the dining hall food... i miss my crazy organic health.
if i'm lucky i'll be in bed by 10:30 tonight. i'll keep you posted.
and speaking of which... we mos def have to update valerie on the salad bar sitch tomorrow.... (i should actually be chanelling my energy elsewhere.... ahem.)

excerpts from brooklyn bridge project...

c'est la joie dans les chamières.... excuse me?

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 16:13:34 GMT

brooklyn bridge project, housing project, pierre et jean, polynomials, insane and perhaps unnecessary immigration readings, crossing the boulevard, frantically trying to finish GCW on the train and chug out a "real thought," tenement museum and emergency evacuation. that about sums up the past couple days.
we are going to have a party in boston. yes, yes we are. (by we i mean me zoe and jess.) slumber party chez alex? flusher? in any case, it's gonna be one hell of a party.

birthday remnants:

(boobies)

Lower East Side:

(get your mind out of the gutter.)

time for GCW. peace out.

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 03:34:22 GMT

17

goodnight

sweet dreams...

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 03:21:00 GMT

i have just ended my last day of being 16.
goodnight, and maybe when i wake up in the morning i'll feel different. probably not, but there's going to be a party anyways.

love,
jesse

to my mog....

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 22:33:32 GMT

after that little blast from the past:
one class tomorrow, bitches, one class tomorrow.... but really, i have two classes tomorrow. it's only jess has one.
ahem, tomorrow is my birthday, in case you weren't already aware of that, but you probably are since i've been announcing it around town for like the past couple weeks.
brooklyn bridge project anyone?
also harvey wang project: fuck me dead that class was boring.
jay also can't send my package. ask me if you really want to know.... you probably all do.
the dining hall food has been sucky lately. unfortunate, because i've just been eating my essence, if you will, for two meals a day for the past four days.
IMPROMTU MEETING
telephone at dinner tonight. i broke diane's water. or pooped in ben's water, however you choose to hear it. my bad on that one.
i have yet to figure out what i'm doing for the long weekend. maybe i could experiment with being homeless.... then talk to lee stringer about it. not a bad idea, i just don't think it would fly with the adults.
presently i have a lot of work. i should get on that.
chomp on these for a while, and remember.... do it with thy might.

this is pretty unfortunate.... just in case you don't remember my face.

peace out. i'll end on a good note.

word to your mother

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 19:28:59 GMT

double take?

love you

"do it with thy mom" - jbruce

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 04:02:38 GMT

ok, as of now, jess is appalled with her physics class. "rules of rounding? excuse me?" yes.
today:
woke up, raisin bran as per. i don't think i've had anything but since i've been here, with the exception of weekends. missed workcrew and hauled ass down to masters for all school meeting. "it was like they had no soul" says sonja. it was painful.
the things i carried workshop..... hauled ass all over the place to study for my map assessment test. erm, map assessment? i ain't no mapmaker and i ain't never gonna be. peaced out of there and had another TTYC workshop.... peaced out of there hecksa fast and spent an hour sitting on newspaper outside with the lawn-mower in the distance talking about harvey. and by harvey i mean harvey wang.
THEN i peaced out of there and came upstairs and tried to go buy my own personal harvey wang but there was a long line at the bookstore so me and sonj had to haul ass up the hill and get ready to peace out of d.ferr to go into the city and a panel about poetry/spoken word?
yes. THEN we hauled some more ass back to the train and i spent the ride home in tranquility knitting my scarf, which i think is finally on the right track, while zoe doodled in her notebook and read harvey.
ok, i'll admit, we hauled yet some more ass up the hill once back in d.ferr and here i am at school after a pleasant evening of phone conversations and ben.
my teacher/next-door neighbor erica was nice and invited me in for apple and peanut butter and then steve (my math teacher) came too and i put the cork back in a bottle of wine, much to their astonishment and then we talked math and about spoken word and cats and TTYC. then she made me eat trail mix and then i left.

ok can we talk about how awk it is when your ex step-father is discussing your potential trips to boston (among other things related to that topic) with your mother MULTIPLE times, one of them including back-to-school night? yes, i think we all agree: awk. chew on that for a minute and get back to me.

PHOTOSHOOT

excuse me?

sweet dreams, children.

um.... excuse me?

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 06:33:34 GMT

i know all you moofuses back at home will mos def advise me not to get a tattoo.... but really, what are you gonna do when i'm all the way in new york? all i want to know is what i should get, where i should get it. chomp on that for a while.
it's been an exciting couple weeks here in d.ferr
let's see. today: the met where i both appreciated the french feminist and followed some german boys up to the roof.
we hit up urban outfitters after the 9/11 children's gallery, which i can only say was depressing - at the very least.
we wandered over to union square and ate at coffee shop with secret, or actually not so secret hopes of catching a glimpse of mk&a.
interesting conversations with alexa and zoe in the park when jess was talking to grace. man fetish?
we spent a while waiting for a corner table at cossi, but i would have to say that the s'mores were worth it.

tomorrow i'm planning a leisurely day of d.ferr: interviews and pedicures
i plan to follow that up with some work. map assessment anyone?
wish me luck.